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Paranoia and control issues lead to awful things. Censorship sucks. No YouTube? Banning blogs? For goodness sake Turkey, take a chill pill. Now the blog is up and running again... I will first say, Happy Halloween. 

Things here are great for me these days.... But today, I felt pangs of loneliness. And all thanks to a night that has turned into yet another American Hallmark holiday. I have never even liked Halloween. BUT today I busted out the orange tights in excitement. Too bad the stares orange stockings brought evoked more embarrassment than nostalgia. (nostalgia = the best/biggest candy bars of Linden and Burns Ave., dumping the pillow case and counting the goods, "You better have yur candy x-rayed!", glimpses into lives via front door, primary 

school parade, ghost costume, bustin-a-move in disguise, the crazies of Asheville, the buzz, belly aches.)

I love my family and that they came here. I love they loved visiting, as much as I loved having them. Isn't it strange for a 24 year-old and her parents and aunt to be in one another's company non-stop for a week and truly have an indescribably lovely time together? My fam must be strange, and too good to be true...

- Some places in the world are so rich in history and culture and 

wonder and magic that my vocabulary can do no justice to describe their existence. .... 

time of now & music of nineties

Dear Camie recently wrote, "time is both 'of the essence' and simultaneously set in stone. Today someone told me you never talk about time with a pregnant woman or a soldier... because you don't know how they preceive their time. Time deceives. Time flies in the company of some, while it drags in the company of others, and somehow stands still for moments of great magnitute. Time is on our side. Or is it? This force that dictates the world and you can never quiet get a hold of has been on my mind recently. This is why. 

-I am on duty 144 hours a week. So I suck the 24 hours that are solely mine for everything they got. My minutes hold more meaning. It is nice to appreciate time.

-I think there must be a place somewhere across the sea where music stays stagnant for a decade. And then Istanbul unearths these voices that will make associations explode for any true child of the 90s. I turned on the TV in my room for the first time two nights ago...(and it wasnt a 90s special). MTV was playing Un-break My Heart (Toni Braxton), Virtual Reality (Janiroquai), I Will Always Love You (Whitney Houston-Bodyguard), Because You Loved Me (Celine Dion). My friend put on Alanis Morissette, Jagged Little Pill, and thought it was a new album (it was the 2nd most sold album of the 90s). Yesterday alone I heard these songs on the radio... November Rain (Guns N' Roses), Under The Bridge (RHCP), and Runaway Train (Soul Asylum. And now in the last 20 hours I have listened to Runaway Train 34 times... ehhhhhh.

so.... maybe last night I too a little carried away with this whole 90s thing. No judgements please. If you smile remembering a few of these long-forgotten names, it would make my hour one well spent. And if this really get your blood flowing, you can listen to the 30 sec clips on Itunes. Its like, really exciting. Here we go.

tlc, no scrubs/creep  

third-eye blind- semi-charmed life

savage sarden- truly madly deeply  

no doubt- don't speak

boyz II men- end of the road  

melissa ethridge- I'm the only one

semisonic- closing time  

the fugees- killing me softly

barenaked ladies- one week  

leAnn rimes- How do i live 

presidents of the United States- peaches  

shawn colvin- Sunny came home

del amitri- roll to me  

k-ci and lojo- all my life

soundgarden- black hole sun  

blink 182- all the small things

dave matthews- crush  

fastball- the way

r.e.m.- everyone hurts  

salt and pepa- lets talk about sex

sisqo- thong song  

master p- make em say ugh

bone thugs 'n harmony- crossroads  

aerosmith- crazy

annie lennox- walking on broken glass  

janet jackson- again

brandy and monica- the boy is mine  

mariah carey- fantasy, dreamlover

10,000 maniacs- because the night  

dixie chicks- wide open spaces

spice girls- wanna be   

sir mix-a-lot- babys got back

b*witched- c'est la vie  

baz luhrmann- sunscreen song

vanilla ice- ice ice baby  

michael jackson- black or white

hanson- mmmbop  

chumbawumba- tubthumping

technotronic- move this, pump up the jam  

next- too close

the offspring- pretty fly (for a white guy)  

will smith- gettin jiggy wit it

gina g- oo ahh... just a little bit  

all for love- bryan adams, rob stewart, sting

ace of base- the sign  

green day- time of your life

sugar ray- fly  

brittney spears- .... baby one more time

cristinia agularia- genie in a bottle  

ricky martin- livin la vida loca

crash test dummies- mmm mmm mmm  

B-52's- love shack

69 boyz- tootsie roll  

freak nasty- da dip

hootie and the blowfish- i only wanna be with you

puff daddy- mo money mo problem  

puff daddy/faith evens- ill be missing you

whew. and onward... so...

at this time #1... I am feeling great after successfully fasting for Yom Kippur (see what i did to atone for my sins...haha) Also Shana Tovah to all. Lets make this new year a good one. 

at this time #2... I am anticipating my real home coming to my new home. My beautiful aunt and parents will be here next week!

great brother, sister, mother action shot

                           mama bear

 at this time #3... I am going to press "publish," grab my bag, and head to the Princess Islands for the night. City i love you, but nature i need you.